I have been married about 17 years (this January yay!) and I still think of him alll the time. Like ALL the time. Like, if I meet my friends for lunch etc his name is guaranteed to come up. I joke that he actually comes to all my functions in spirit.
And I call him all the time. Ok lah that's not quite true, but let's put it this way ok- if I get through the day without calling him he's going to ask me if I was allright. I am MUCH better nowadays, I only call him like twice at the very most ha ha. Sometimes it's inane things like I miss you, half the time it's "please call Pakcik bas, dia tak ambik anak kita harini". I don't keep as many numbers as he does (ok excuse je tu nak call) - most of the time it's where are you?
And this is not because he is mega cute or mega rich or what. We knew each other since Uni days kan...odds are that we probably will get bored with each other. But I haven't. I do check if he's bored (and that by the way ladies, sound sooo pathetic when you actually ask the question- are you bored with me yang?) hahahahha so don't do it! But he said I am his entertainer (yah me, born comic) . Apparently he said he looks forward to seing me at the end of the day.
I just reread this post- eer yucksss!! Im sure my kids are reaching for the bucket allready ha ha. Anyway they always ask why we lock the door all the time. I tell them...Nothing's going on kids, we just want to sit and chat without you guys barging in all the time hahahahah! Yes we do speak very softly so you can't hear us. And it's not ALL the time.
You know Giuliana and Bill? I love watching them.. I know, part of me think OH SHALLOW nye aku...but it's fun the way they interact...he's so accommodating to her and she's such a whiner. Kind of remind me of us really. hahaha
Eh what is the point ni ha? Oh yeah I want to be less clingy and more independent. Ok I am allready v independent. But I want him to not know how obsessed I am with him, can tak. So dia tak da lah ego sangat. I mean, there is this lady at his hospital who is an Indonesian lady yang kaya raya rayaaaaaa..pakai Omega Constellation watch and nice suits. And tak pakai tudung , rambut blow and short bob, and slim and pakai pants suit and sometimes skirt pendek and look young and also so trendy the mendy. I envy her style..and half of me think laki aku tengok Makcik stylo ni kat office dia, sekali balik tengok makcik frumpy kat rumah sure tak best kan? heheheheh. Plus makcik frumpy yang macam clingy. Not from the I think he's going to cheat on me angle, but rather from I want him to admire me angle.
So ...any ideas?? Hahhaha sorry lah post merapu.