Friday, April 14, 2017

Dilemma of a diva

Friends are there to listen to you and bounce off ideas and help you solve dilemmas.

I am lucky to have a very close group of friends who I can rely on to give me sound advice and support.

Disclaimer: I have a lot to be grateful for and every time I think I have a problem I realise that it's probably going to seem like so mengada -ngada to some. 

My current problem or dilemma is whether I should go to that job interview or not.

I left the other firm because it had a culture that I didn't think I could be part of. They were very professional and very good but perhaps not too hung up on  being warm and friendly and cuddly, things which I value. Since I am going to be with the office for 8 hours a day I want to like the environment.

Anyway suddenly I received a job offer from this company. This very nice guy said he really needs help, and I would be perfect for the job. I was excited because he was excited! He has many things he wants to get done. It is corporate work, he needs me for the stuff he thinks I can do for him. And he has been looking for me for a long time. The pay is not so fantastic, actually a pay cut. but it would be monthly and stable. I would get EPF! (have not gotten that for absolutely ages and somehow this is important to me at this age and in my mid life identity crisis). The guy is actually nice, smiled a lot, and he said everything I have done in the past in terms of work- he wants ! He said he's working on a great package..although in the end he said they can't match what I wanted. But they will give me a car! (Like I need it? I don't like to drive :) )

Flattering right?? So anyway that was a month ago. Since then, I returned to work with my previous partner and the same arrangement (although I have requested new terms, mainly money and also some changes in the firm like can we move office please boss and can I have a junior lawyer please boss and can we have a website already lah) .I've been working from home and pretty much going wherever I please and fixing my own time. I'm getting clients . So far. For all you know that's it for the year. But at this point in time the two months working in a proper office seems surreal and I am enjoying my freedom.

Sooo then, this company called and arranged an interview, and told me that this is an informality and I'm basically there and the job's mine and he has an office already for me and he's arranging for someone to assist me.

So do I tell him I don't really want to go?

Or should I go for the job? It's stability, it's recognition, it's being part of an organisation.

Vs freedom, autonomy, etc etc.

So my friends basically said- just don't waste his time, tell him it's not for you . Don't feel obligated etc.

So now three days away from the interview, should I cancel on this guy? he's been selling me so hard to his bosses so he said.

Never mind, my friends are right.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Let's stay together :)

Let's Stay Together!

I heard this song being sung by Obama (click here to see the awesome man sings!) And I looked for it and it's Al Green's know it, if you are my son said "I don't know that song!" Duh, of course ler  Johan hehe. I was about 5 kot!

Now the other half pun now likes this song and humming it around the house. We're actually thinking of going to karaoke just to sing this song. Hehe..which is ok right, except going for karaoke is not what Hajj and Hajjah do..we are supposed to be bettering ourselves at the quran- (which we do too!) But we haven't kicked the habit of liking to sing hehe(which I don't think we really should worry about to be honest)

I was thinking of having a karaoke dinner where I can sing to him this song..yes, he's turning 50..I'm thinking of a small cosy dinner with friends.but then (a) which friends ?? and (b) I loathe to share him with the friends..he has so little time, I'd rather share his limited with the family.

Also want to have a doa selamat, give thanks to Allah the almighty for granting us the happiness so far. Anyway we haven't had a big do for a many things have happened and everyone is busy.   It would be nice..but the guestlists would be so long..who do I leave out?? I'm terrible about this. 

anyway ..will think about it.

In the meantime..back to the soul music!

Wednesday, April 05, 2017


Well!! It's now 2017!!!

1. Nadine is 2nd year sophomore in U Chicago, doing what looks to be like history of India and anything and everything related thereto under the guise of Islamic history. She was the best student of Adni Islamic school. President of her Malaysian Chicago association or something and really getting into this uni thing.

2. Sara is a first year medical student in Cyberjaya University Centre for Medical Studies can you believe my little Sawa going to be Dr Sara. Thankfully she was awarded the best student of Adni Islamic School for her year. Loves art and doing more of it and selling her stuff

3. Sophia is now starting foundation in business at HeriotWatt University in Malaysia (the Malaysian campus) . She will do her first year  here too before transferring (money permitting) to SCOTLAND for her degree. She was also awarded the best student in Adni. Loves baking and sold lots of cakes to school for fundraising and counted all her takings as  profit (helloo what about the costs your mom and dad put up haa)

..yes I know , i have a contract running with them for the best student award thing hahahahaa

4. Dahlia is in form 5 and sitting for her IGCSE this year and hopefully will do something she likes. Am thinking of sending her to Japan to learn the language properly and also can i go with her hon?
She all of a sudden late last year requested to learn piano so she is banging her heart out on the keys. Very diligent and organises her own tuition and stuff and always studying (or actually reading up anime we KNOW Daya)

5.Johan well he is really progressing up as cadet- he's gone to Sargeant now and will aim to complete to Warrant officer by next year. He finishes school next year (I  KNOW RIGHT????!!!) he is doing ok in school, can do a lot better. He is also progressing in his taekwon do and wants his black belt before he leaves school. He has his aims lah basically. And I hope he gets to be head prefect. He is getting taller but not as tall as he obviously want. Johan, those other boys have stopped growing ok so relax laa

6. Dad is now a cycling addict which is fine (NOT FINE) as long as it does not i nterrupt with his time with me which is of course the first priority (in my head lah the reality is that it's a poor poor second) He has done a 160 km ride, a 180 km ride, and a 90 km ride. And he made a big deal  abt me going to a cooking class with some friends for 4 hours AND my pilates mornings of 2 hours max - its NOT the same hunny , nice try though! I will never be ok with you going 12 hours missing to ride a bike huhu but I think you are awesome anyway.

We are still sickeningly loveydovey and I still think he  is hot but i realise now that a lot of the times he humours me and not tell me when I annoy him or what, I have tried to get him to be honest but he is not that type so I shrug myshoulders lah and have to learn to watch his signs are simple though..they want food, clean clothes, massages, and attention 24hours.

Me..Im still at current firm..dang it I returned, although I tried the big firm for 2 months. I would have stuck it out , you know and excel at it I am sure, had I only liked the culture...

It was fun putting on suits, though

Mom and Dad are had a shock last year when he was admitted into hospital with a stomach complaint and suddently it was an abdominal aneurysm which could easily be fatal. Operation was done pretty much immediately (thank god for the private hospital ) and the other half went in to assist the surgeon who did it and dad is now fully recovered after a horrendous 12 days in ICU and HDU

They stayed with us for a month and then went back home and now from Mom's complaint he is lording it up with her ha ha

Ok Byeeeee

Winter Sonata sure is different at 49 years old!

Believe it or not I am rewatching Winter Sonata.. ee geram betul I dengan si Yujin tu lah... she really was a wutz wasn't she? and...